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Recently read some books…just to see.
You all remember Sylvia Brown…she was that psychic on the Montel Williams show. I’d read something random that made me want to look into that so I picked up a bunch of her books.
Some about how to tell a real psychic from a fake one, stuff about the afterlife, stuff about spirit guides.
What I will share with you though is that it’s actually pretty interesting stuff!
Not so into wondering about psychics and whether they’re real or not, but more into her accounts of what goes on after you duck out and the cycle of reincarnation. (Not specific to her either, but more canon for the people who believe in it).
Like for the most part, the afterlife is a different dimension. There’s a higher energy there and it’s not really far from where we are now. Kind of like a parallel universe type thing, except we move between them, sometimes when dreaming, but more permanently when we duck out.
This other dimension is similar to earth, but everybody spends their time living with more purpose there.
You have artists still, tradesmen, engineers, scientists…all still working on similar things we work on here, but with more knowledge. There’s huge libraries of information or even records of people’s lives that they’ve lived. Still gotta know where to look though, gotta talk to people etc. And as they come up with stuff, they can give people nudges on earth or people writing charts can pick up info to take with them or just whatever…the information gets passed back here to be implemented…new inventions, new songs, etc.
Also cool concepts of spirits guides and life charts. Basically, before we head to earth,we LEGIT write out pretty much everything that happens. What you look like, you pick your parents, you pick that one thing that happens to you in 8th grade, you pick that HORRIBLE violation that happened to you sophomore year of college, you consult the charts of potential parents and deliberately choose one who would duck out at a young age…
You even plan out exit points or essentially times where YOU could duck out if you decide to bail.
The chart gets worked on for a LOOOONNNG time and cross referenced with other people’s charts who are writing theirs, gets run past the council and they make suggestions, edited all that…and then you come down to earth. Your chosen spirit guides watch over you the whole time as well to make sure your chart is playing out right and can appeal the council if ya’ll made a miscalculation to adjust your chart.
The point being, that when we come to earth, we do so with the intent to learn things to further our souls. It could be for our own gain to learn how to deal with specific themes, it could be to live a chart in preparation to be a spirit guide for someone else, it could be (if you’re a Master Teacher like Jesus for example) that you had lots of input in your chart as you were sent to impact humanity in a huge way…and already you were like a “senior soul” type soul. (Generally the other religious leaders like Jesus are all master teachers in this way).
I REAAALLY like this model because it still fits within the Christian model and Bible still applies…God or the Creator is still in charge of everything, it just gives terms to things…
And also gives context and comfort as to “why” when things get really tough.
It’s not the devil, it’s not some evil force, it’s LITERALLY YOU writing in a “I’m shopping at the grocery store while full and realize that I didn’t actually get the food I needed when I get home when I’m actually hungry” way.
Like in the afterlife as it were, you are FULL of love and knowledge and know it all. No negative feelings, no ego… Your spirit guide is the person who talks you down from loading on TOO much, but in this model, YOU decide, to the letter, and the time, the challenges you will go through.
It’s all planned out.
It is writ.
So when difficult circumstances come up, it gives better perspective. Instead of saying “why me” it’s more “okay what is the lesson here and how can I learn from and overcome it? I wrote this in for a reason. To grow.”
That said….
Learned some things today from my mother.
Some really tough things.
REALLY tough things.
I’m very calm about it.
I’m not mad…but it’s deep.
My reaction wasn’t anger, it was “okay. This is consistent. ”
I’m not sure how to deal in an evolutionary way though because my default is emotional wall…and what I learned today reaaallly makes me want to build ones made of teflon.
Easy to forgive. That’s fine.
Love is still there, of course.
But…
I realized why I can be very cold.
And the reason why the wall got built in the first place.
And why it is very difficult for me to open up emotionally.
And why I am reluctant to enter into relationships of any sort.
Stepping back that though…
In this model, I chose to be born into the circumstance I was born into for specific reasons.
I am here to learn lessons.
I am here to learn how to love.
I am here to learn how to trust.
I even think I wrote to be infatuated with Prince at this specific time in my life to make me address some things I’ve deliberately hidden away from myself for YEARS.
Right now…it’s just a lot of information from a lot of different sources…and a lot rapid uptick in awareness about myself…
It’s just…a lot.
I’m not sure what to do with it yet.
