April Showers Bring Stuff
12th House Wrap Up
They say the last month running up to your birthday is always a struggle…something about the sun being in your 12th house…
It’s a bit like closing out the “fiscal year” of your life, except it’s not just money, it’s really tying up emotional lose ends from the past year…astro-wise, it’s called closing out the “solar year”.
I can definitely attest to this phenomena. I feel like I’m trapped in a bit of a negative feedback loop, not exerted by anyone else, more me putting that on me.
Dreams are all mostly “boo-like” or revisiting fears every night.
Super aware of personal shortfalls…like how I get onto others for not getting out of their comfort zone…while I sit comfortably in my comfort zone.
Always having the same thoughts/fantasies to help me get to sleep…which in turn lead to the same kind of negative dreams and things…
Kinda over it.
They say it’ll get better round bout the 15th as the Sun transitions into Taurus, and also that I should pay attention to all the junk that’s coming up now…mostly so I can address it and clear it out..
But I’m kind over it.
Financial Planning for #Homestead 2013
Was doing some financial housekeeping this weekend as well. Totally forgot that I have an investment account with Ed.ward Jon.es. That was to be my “throw money at it and forget about it for the most part” account for…
“Aha! Large purchases that adults make!”
Like say…houses?
I have another account through my job…Roth 401k and ING profit sharing ones that I won’t touch until i’m like 60 or something…
But the Ed.ward Jo.nes one was for occasional cashing out and re-investing as needed.
I tried to log in to it this weekend and got the “you need to call your broker” alert message…realized I actually haven’t spoken to him in a year or two.
Was actually kinda surprised how much was in there! I know I’ll get taxed for cashing out, but I don’t mind so much… probably reinvest 20% of it while putting the rest in the #Homestead2013 fund.
On track to be able to afford a much nicer place than I thought! Though gotta walk that line between “nice place” and “place appropriate for a single woman”.
Like how would dudes feel driving up to a place like this to pick me up for a date :
Yeah I can more than afford it, but I keep putting out a “I’ll pay for your life” vibe to dudes…and a home like this wouldn’t help.
Even since I’ve been single…still attracting the kind of dudes who haven’t figured things out and want a female for ego boosts and coddling.
Gotta change that up somehow…definitely not trying to bankroll grown men…(emotionally and financially). I need support too!
How can you be generous and not attract dudes who kinda want to coast on your generosity?
Or
How can you accept others’ generosity and not feel like/be a leech?
I have issues when dudes other than family pay for things…like dates and stuff.
But at the same time, I wish dudes would treat me.
I need some older women role models to teach me their ways…
This whole “independent woman” thing is a struggle.
