In a Sentimental Mood…
I always get so sentimental around certain times of the month, and today I was especially so.
First through read these two posts by Beloved:
Meet Me in St. Augustine Revisited
Background on her relationship with the love of her life.
Erotic, Hypnotic
Details the consummation of their relationship
*WARNING: Contains Content not suitable for work or those sensitive to sexual content*
After reading Erotic, Hypnotic, I cried.
That experience must have been absolutely ethereal. I’m not even speaking of the physical pleasure, I’m speaking of the emotional, spiritual interaction that took place. Can you even imagine connecting with someone so deeply?
I’m not even sure why it made me cry. Even though I’ve recently been like F these Negroes…
…maybe I miss Loving.
…maybe I miss being Loved.
…maybe I’m jealous that she’s experienced something that incredible.
…maybe that kind of connection is something I want more than anything.
…maybe I’m realizing that so many women are professional and taking care of business without men in their lives, I see that same life for myself, and I get scared that I’ll never find real Love.
I think that last one may be it. I mean I know I’m still young, but I see more people living without love whether they’re married, single, young, or old. I’ve honestly never met anyone who has had a successful and loving relationship…
That’s scary.
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